Loving him endlessly...

i miss you baby...

2009-10-13T01:22:00.003+08:00

[Listening to taufik's songs while blogging]
i really2 can't sleep tonight... arrggh!! i miss him tooo much...
[crying....]

it has been a week his in camp....
my everynights recently seems so dull full of saddness...
no more latenight calls from him...
no more sweet outings with hm...
only every saturday i get to spend time with him....

lucky there's YOUTUBE.
I can view and listen to Taufik's songs and videos..
He reminds me of him...

I'm so lucky to have a guy that is so sincere and really dotes n loves me with all his heart.
Eversince his hair kena BOTAK, everyday he keep saying that i will run away from him if i see him botak!

Actually i really hate botak guys but then because of ns, I'm ok with that...
Haizz syg... no matter what i wil love you forever laaa... don't worry... i'm a setia person...
Your kind-caring heart and charisma is what i like most about you....

I reaally can't wait to meet you this coming saturday syg...
10 days i tak dapat jumpe you...
kesian baby i...

Setiap nafasku berpesan namamu...
jangan pernah tinggalkan diriku..
sentiasa hadir di jalan hidupku...
Yakini cintaku hanya untukmu...

Aku menanti ketibaan hari itu...

At work

2009-08-13T16:34:00.002+08:00

Hey yaaaa!
Blogging in office...

Went to the nearest library actually wanted to borrow Kiyosaki's books but then NOT AVAILABLE! haaiyaaaa

Nvrmind... but then i found D.Trump Books. I've borrowed one to accompany me on my way to work.
Everyday in my mind i kept thinking of BUSINESS! NEW IDEAS! BRANDING! MARKETS!
there's various type of business i can start small with, but then hard to choose.

Currently i've some fresh and boobastic ideas.
Soon to be spread out to the whole world.
Its just a matter of time and patience.

I need to study and be alert of all business news ard the whole world.
Been reading business articles,magazines(The Peak, The Millionaires) and forums.
It's good to practice reading and also LISTENING hahaha..
whenever i'm having my lunch outside, singaporeans nearby me love to talk about business markets...bla bla bla...
hahaha i just quietly listen to their conversations and THINK!
Good way of receiving new updates and ideas on business huh!

Well...
Fasting month is coming soon and i wish to slim down and take care of my skin tone when Hari Raya arrives in a month's time.
At work, i've been drinking alot and hahaha talking alot tooo!
Argggh the working hours!

Ok gtg to my work!
see you... Muah =* =* =*

busy with my current life

2009-08-08T13:18:00.013+08:00

Waaaaa
Da lame tak update blog...
What have i been up to lately...?

Currently i'm at my office desk. Working alone handling all business matters..
Boss informed me we need to hire more staff for our opening at ION.

Since i've start working, been handling everythg in office.
Calls, appointments, treatment consultation, paperwork, emails and dadadada...

So far, I'm happy working here but the working hours i'm still unhappy with...
Hmmm boss told me i'll be getting a raise on my salary this October... wuuhhuuuu...

hmmm... when will it be my turn to manage my own company and employees. ONE DAY!!! before i get married for sure!!

I'm sure you all been wondering what kind of business environment i'm currently working at recently... hahaha GUESS!

It's somewhere luxurious and quiet ambience.

hahaha ok.. its one of the top relaxing spa in singapore and orchard.

I love working in a calm,luxurious and relax ambience. NO HIGH-STRESS!

I'm consider lucky THE ONLY MALAY girl as this job requires mandarin, japanese and english speaking.
The boss knew i can understand mandarin. How can she guess my special talent eh?? hahaha...

Day by day i'm learning to speak mandarin at work.
hahaha..

ok gtg to my work already...

lastly, i love u always baby tigerku!

muah3!

Between life and passion

2009-05-16T13:13:00.005+08:00

last wednesday, i've receive a call from marina bay sands. Wuuhuu they told me to come down for interview the next day. I didnt expect them to call me as i rmmbr i apply online last year june. waaaaa so long then they call me.

It was so sweet of BF to accompany me to the interview place. thank you syg...
Well, during the interview i was so lucky to be interviewed by a chinese sweet-looking lady. Syukur i was'nt nervous at all. What i rmmbr we had a nice chat and i kept smiling from ear to ear n laughing with her. She told me that was my 1st round of interview and there will be another 2nd round on aug if i'm selected. waaaa kene wait lagi...

well,the next following day... i receive another call from School of Hospitality( A private school ). YESSSAAAH! they told me to come down for orientation this coming tuesday. weeeee i'm so excited! i will be getting fully sponsored diploma scholarship and monthly allowances. Waaa besbes while studying, i'm getting paid by them.

Hmmm BF will be going NS soooon. But its ok... i've made some creative plans for myself while he's in camp. Been polishing up on my sewing skills and designing lately.. I'm not going to give up that easily. Recently, i've read on Berita Harian. I saw a famliar face ex-woodgrover sec. He is now widely-known for his great talent in photography. Wow i did'nt knew he had high passion in photography. Well done ex-woodgrover.

Hmmm i'm thinking RUNWAYS!! London!! Dubai!! Colours!! MODELS!!

Can that dream of mine be change into a reality one day?

i say '' SOOOOOOON''.....

the more ex-woodgrovers i see on the newspapers, the more berkobah-kobah my passion in art is...
My Statement: Arts and business are not my life, its just a passion. Family, friends, love and religion are my life.

rawan by azharina

2009-05-12T02:11:00.006+08:00

A new song that i've been listening to recently...
I love her tone of voice and melody..
ENJOY!

kau untukku

2009-05-12T00:26:00.006+08:00

(singing..)
Biar berjauhan namamu daku sebutkan..
Cukup untuk mengisi
sepi tika pilu menanti..

Adakah ku layak untuk dicintai dan dimanjai ??
Dengan perangaiku yang selfish ini.
i agree after what bf said to me that i'm always the one that needs special attention, love, care and concern the most from him. But then me myself rarely behave/shows one towards him.
i know guys are sensitive too and they too need special attention from their gf. I've just realise that i'm being selfish and behaving unfair towards him.
Padan muke kau raudah kene marah tadii! what were u thinking hah! (this is the 2nd time you have hurt his feelings).

I didnt meant to hurt his feelings. but my intention was to make things better for us.
I swear i dont love or have any feelings towards that guy syg... (pls trust me)
My weakness is my kindness. I'm a such tooo nice girl... since i was a little girl... and tats what i've always heard from my friends and relatives ard me... TOO NICE..I always kesiankan ppl easily... whenever they neeed my help.

Hanya cintamu yang terbaik untukku syg.. and not tat guy!
Cintaku padamu tak pernah berubah ..
Please forgive me for being unfair..
sometimes i don't realise my mistakes but i thank u for correcting them for me.
i just want you to knw that i sincerely love you..

you know kan that ive once told you that its hard for me to love someone anymore...
but then.. you've did it. you've change my mindset. And i've successfully open my weak heart to a brand new me for you.

Without you i don't know what will happen to me..
maybe i can't love anyone anymore..
maybe i will start thinking of killing myself again..
because why? because i'm weak in jage hati seseorang that i love most.

i don't know what words to say to describe how much i love you syg...
i don't know how to make you believe me...

A BIG thank you for thinking about me whenever you are making decisions syg...
i know you are really sincere and caring in loving me...
i'm so lucky to have you izan...

you knw what syg...
my heart hurts whenever i've realise that i've hurt your feelings..
it hurts me most to see you trying to tahan those anger and tears in your eyes infront of me...
i know you were trying to hide those tears of anger infront of me..

syg...
do i deserve you? do i ??
i can't sleep tonight after what i've did and said to you tadi...
i'm feeling so angry with myself...
i tak pandai jage hati you...
you selalu kene patience towards i kan kan..
i'm hard to handle betul kan syg...
STURBORN! SELFISH! SPOILTGIRL! DOES'NT KNOW HOW TO APPRECIATE LOVE!

what i know i WANT you and i NEDD you forever...

craazyy,sweeeet,fuuunnn

2009-05-10T18:28:00.006+08:00

helllooooooo i'm updating now...

been busy busy lately....

well... alot of crraazzy, sweeeeet, fuuunnn experiences i've encountered nowadays...

crrraazzzy because..
I MISS HIM SOOOO MUCH EVERY SECS...

Been spending lots of crazy funs with him.... swimming.. walks at the beach... eating tghtr.. exploring new/unique places an an romantic moments with him.. AaaaWWW!

A few weeks ago, i went for a short holiday(3 days)trip with my families and relatives to Sofitel Palm Resort near Senai Airport there... i just love their landscape and facilities there..
golf course... paintball... atv.. club house.. lovely swimming pool... hot sauna... the room... the toilet.. EVERYTHING!

2009-03-16T17:07:00.003+08:00

After a long long tiring & busy schedule i had, now im updating my blog atlast!
My life seems to be more fun and meaningful now... like FABERCASTEL(colour-colourful)
I met someone special.
Although i wish for a taller guy than me,but to me now thats NOT THE MOST IMPORTANT thing i should find in a guy.
Infact i should find someone that really sincerely love,care,understands and accept me for the way i am, that always make me laugh and have a common passion & mindset in life.
LOOKS is of course important to girls. but then, there are many kind of LOOKS.
For me, i prefer sweet & charming looking guys. Also a SAME MINDSET as me.
Comfortability & Connectivity with the one i love is IMPORTANT to me.

Waiting for someone is BULLSHIT for me.
As ive did wait for someone i love most a few years back. i remember i waited for him for about 4 YEARS.But in the end see what happen. He found someone new.
I advise all girls DON'T EVER WAIT FOR SOMEONE ESPECIALLY THE ONE YOU LOVE MOST.
Love comes anytime. You will not realize or notice TRUELOVE but you will encounter it soona or later. TRUST ME! It is just a matter of time.

For me, i didnt knew i could love someone so much again, until this charming guy came to my life.Its a miracle i can say. I don't believe in truelove actually. I think i LOVE this guy because of his mindset,his eyebrow,his eyes,the way he speaks,his sincere heart and most of all i feel COMFORTABLE being with him. NO SHY SHY. =)

Now my ITE LIFE is over! GREAT! im planning to find a meaningful job & sign up short courses.
I hope by end of this year, i have a meaningful job,happy and healthy realtionship with my families,cousins and IZAN!,a small online business,fluent speaking in mandarin,have various beauty & wellness cert & most of all my bank savings digit rolling up up UP UP.

i dont want to be a greedy person. I just want to make others around me happy. Thats my aim. MONEY is not the most important thing in my life but LOVE!
Without LOVE from my families and friends & especially IZAN, i will be weak and i can't focus on my goals.

Oh btw, i have lots of pictures waiting to be uploaded..

2009-02-17T09:57:00.002+08:00

okok i just have to let all those words out. last sunday i was in a dilemma. i dun knw which guy shld i choose to go out with. but then on the following day, i had a totally busy and rushing day.
i had presentation with Mrs Lee,meetings with Mrs Angiee Lee,job interview exam with Mdm Rajesh. Wow! and the most shocking part was when i was preparing myself to school,shikin msg me and told me someone had a crush on me. WHAT THE!! for the past 2 years seh. thats long. Im so shock! I was told that he is a very2 shy person and also he didnt dare to come to me or even say hi cos he said my face looks like im ATTACHED! hahaha.. hey dont judge a book by its cover ok.

After school ends.. i went cineleisure to catch the preview movie ' HE'S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU' with my sister. Boiii! i did learn alot of lesosns from that mv. haha! All about relationships,sex,singles,married,gays,desperate womens hahaha evrythg. i really had a great time that night.

On wednesday,i'll be having modelling course by audrey quek(ex miss spore). Wow! im so anxious and excited with things that are related to beauty.( model catwalks,high heels,makeups,confidence and posture evrthg. im so fotunated to be among the top 4 students to be selected as models.The BIG DAY event would be held at Marriot Hotel 1 March 2009. BES BES!!! I LOVE RUNWAYS.. imagine everyone(the corparates2,famous designers) are staring and observing all your movements. ish scary ! haha!

Thurs, i will be having driving lessons at 11.45am and then straight away to school i'll be having Adam khoo's Workshop from 1 - 5pm. Wow thats long. tired tired! i wonder if i could make it to school on time. WONDER WOMEN!!!! hahahaha.

Well.. im actually confused right now but at the same time HAPPY! ok ive just have to left it all out. then i can feel relieve. Last night, that CRUSH guy(S) call me. It seems that we had a great bonding. Surprisingly to found out that his interest and goals is so equivalent with R( the guy i admired). Everythg business2. WOW! also (S) pernah work in the travelling industry. WOW! (R) also pernah seh. which i too love about travel industry.

alamak... i gtg.. busy busy... see you when im free kk.

2009-02-02T22:55:00.005+08:00

My goal is to create jobs and make money work for me. I want to be taught how to write strong business and financial plans. Setting up a business needs a large sum of money. Some people would suggest borrow loan from bank,relatives,friends and families or even 'Tai Long'. But for me, it will never be my choice. I will seek other solutions to solve my capital problem. My dad once said to me at the living room,'' siti,if you were given $500,what kind of business will u set up?''. My eyes went wider when i listen to his question. i SMILE. I then reply, '' i will double that sum of money every 4 month and make use of my talents(like cooking,designing,teaching dance exercise) as a tool to attract customers. I will show them what miracles/creations i can create with my talent,knowledge and passion. Maybe setting up an online business would be a great start. More freedom, flexible time working and easily reachable to customers.

Maybe i can try become a part time student motivator in primary schools for a start,like what i learn in Adam's Khoo Workshop during my sec5 days. Hahaaa maybee.. i just love to storytelling with my friends about business and life. Maybe i could share what ive experience and learn with those primary students. I should share with them what teachers there dont teach them in school. Something that is pure and they will forever take it with them when they start working in the real world.

I heard from my mum that the primary school system has changed. Those pri 1 & 2 are excempted from taking exams. They will frequently use coms/laptops in school instead and do more sports stuff.Wahhh. So lucky their generation now eh. But then, when they reach level pri 3 will they face difficulty in handwriting?? hmmm yela sebab they are taught to use computers since young instead of using pen and paper like us in the past. hmm...

im worried about my 4 year old niece. Now with the influence of technologies, at home she da pandai on laptop u know. Always singing japanese song on youtube. Copycat dancing like britney spears. WAH wah WAH. but whatever it is, she's my 1 and only cute niece and i loveeeeee her.

2009-01-25T22:29:00.003+08:00

this whole week has been a totally crazy week for me. Some days im terribly sick and weak. Had a really bad bad headache, i kept vomiting and my body temperature was uncertain. The next few days jumping and running like a mad person on my graduation party night(club scene). I don't know whats wrong with me. Maybe because i took too much panadol. 16 pieces all together...
I had trouble sleeping at night and its hard for me to turn in early. I'll be graduating soon in a months' time and i haven't made up my mind which school and course should i choose.
Actually i have passion in business. Trully and deeply dooo. But i'm in dilemma to choose between dilpoma in marketing or diploma in business. The difference between this 2 course is that in marketing i would get to gain more depth in that area while in business i get to gain more knowledge about their various types of business and also im given a choice to choose which elective modules best suits me. like for eg. in entreprenuer,tourism and resorts,fashion and marketing. hmmm...

Well.. i guess i need to listen to my heart to answer my dilemma problem.
For now, i still have a couple more projects to settle. Public relations press conference video,Integrated Events Mgmt proposal, CDP Business proposal and Project Mgmt & Scheduling presentation. wah! and we are left with less than 2 weeks.

Why must the teachers throw us all the repetitive projects to us in our last few weeks in school. why not last year. Why everything seems like rushing us. I don't like seh.
Headache you know... Exams is a month away from us and i am not readily prepared.

The Month of feb will be a totally R.U.S.H.I.N.G and B.U.Z.Y month for me.
Competitions, Presentations, Project deadlines, Exam Interview, Camps, Revisions . . .

I even don't have time to go shopping, go for movies or even karaoke(hobby) with my girls.
I guess i'll just have to be more patience and wait for the month to end.

And oh yaa
i've been longing to tell ya ppl about this that im totally able to forget and have NO feelings on farhan anymore. aaarrhh... YESH!!!
he's just a STUPID STUPID guy to me. A selfish and unpredictable person. I don't need a guy like him.